cause i need to shop there. apparently i've gotten even chubbier since last summer. all of my clothes are super tight. and i don't love showing my donut around my middle. its not cute. tight clothes + bulging donut = sad jonesy. i just went into the bathroom & while washing my hands, i glimpsed at myself. and was overwhelmed with a wave of disgust & frustration. i might still not be working out everyday, and i might still enjoy a treat from time to time, but i'm trying harder to be more active and eat better than ever. and i am still getting bigger. my "fat" clothes that i got last summer just aren't cutting it anymore. i look obsene. and unfortunately i just don't have enough money to buy clothes right now. suck a duck. i wish it were christmas time. i'd ask santa for some clothes.
i wish this was enough to make me not want to go home tonight & finish off my oreos. i wish. but instead, i'll go dip my misery in milk. i wish it encouraged me to go home tonight & get on my treadmill... unfortunately i am helping a friend tonight with an exciting little project, so won't be home til late. and i'm still tired. darn it, i'm drooling over those oreos now.