ok. let me preface by admitting that i'm exhausted. sleep deprived for 2 days now. and i need my sleep. and i'm "emotional" as in - its going to be that time. figure it out, moron.
I checked my email tonight & found an email about my friend, JT's baby passing away. JT and I knew each other at Ricks. We've known each other a long time. He told me in January about his baby being born prematurely, due to complications fromCMV. He sent me a clipping of her obituary tonight. I sat and cried. uggggg! I can't imagine going through this. (this, is not, my friend sue's grandbaby... i don't think i've mentioned JT's baby in blog before, although i've known about her and prayed for her since January)
JT's the one that told me recently that my worrying can't really do much, but my prayers can. I took that to heart & have tried to do better. Pray more, worry less. i know i've mentioned a few times that i feel like i've got a lot on my plate, right now. a lot of people i'm worried about it. there have been a few times, where i feel "weighted," mainly because deep down, i'm a decent person, & i don't like it when people i care about are suffering. i wish i could do more for people - but can't. I've prayed a lot more than normal, sadly. I wish I could help ease more pain. but right now, I just sit here, crying. i can't imagine going through what so many people I know are going through, and right now, especially JT & his wife. and I feel really lonely tonight. (and tired.) i just need to go to bed.