i wasn't going to drink a dr pepper today, but low and behold i just cracked one open. sometimes this place is so frustrating. this place being the school i currently work at. the old school i worked at had things organized and taken care of. it had a secretary that didn't make up bull sh*t excuses for everything. blaming things on everyone else but her own incapabilities. we didn't get a budget last year. once. not a one. how the hell are we supposed to know how much money we've got and what we can order supply-wise if no one ever tells us what we had or have. then, our beginning of the year order was held off from ordering, so we don't have any supplies, because we were overdrawn & they needed to balance us out. who's fault is this really? oh ours of course. we're supposed to magically know all these numbers and not need supplies at the beginning fo the year. (don't you worry, i sent out an email this morning to our principal voicing some of these frustrations... too bad she's on vacation & won't get it til next week.) but that is a whole nother bitch and moan session: why is it ok for the principal to go on vacation the first full week of school??!?
then, as if i need any more ammo, i go in to make a quick copy of something we're going to do this afternoon - we have three copy machines in our workroom, for the whole school - basically. the one that is currently working, is being used. the other one that is usually the next choice is low on toner (office didn't have any, so its been ordered) and doesn't work. so i resort to the dinosaur one that is as old as the school - 10 years. let me just tell you something. in a school this big - copy machines won't last for 10 years. they're hurting after 4 years to be replaced. that's just the way it is. it constantly gets jammed & is absolutely more than i can handle today. so when it jammed, i grabbed my blackline & left. i'm not spending the time to unjam that damned machine. i left there swearing and muttering. loudly. i'm sure i was making the resource aid that was in there a little nervous.
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh. i can be a monster people. it is coming out this morning. its just that why is SO FRICKEN MUCH expected out of me, when its absolutely ridiculous how no one else is held to any kind of standards? how can i do anything when no one else does their job properly??? so to make a long point short, i drank a dr pepper this morning. well, i'm still drinking it. and its tasting good.
in other news - my kids and i are adjusting. i'm being more patient with them, keeping in mind they're trying & that they're still first graders. and they're interrupting less & getting a little more focused. they really are quite cute kids. small bunch of them, but i've got my hands full!