so it was one year ago today, that I got that fateful call from a sweet little temple worker wondering about the details of my wedding that had just been cancelled. i think that might be part of the reason i've been in this funk this week, that i haven't been able to shake. oh how things change so quickly & you realize that your life isn't at all what you thought, expected or wanted. sometimes i think about where i'd be if he hadn't turned out to be a total lying creep. i know i can't dwell on it. cause that's not who he is, or ever was, apparently. its unfortunate, cause the person i thought he was, was kinda cool. oh well. they say there's someone better out there for me. i'm not holding my breathe - but i'm still keeping my fingers crossed in hopes. at least i still have my rapist's wit to bounce back with. haha.
luckily i'll go over and see Annie tonight. she always makes me feel better about any & everything. a four year old world is pretty simple. we'll snuggle on the "puff" with our "wee" and for that short little while, my world will be perfect.